um, yeah, i don't give a fuck bitch!!!

well, one of my friends decided to stop talkin to me because she thinks i was talkin about her

is she serious!?

yes, she is very much so serious.

um, i don't think she knows this but i could really care less. i've come to the point in my high school carrer where i have far more important thing to do than to worry about somethiing like who wants to be friends with me.

(i scoff)

im officially done with bitches. i have my five ride or die that's willing to do anything and everything for me

what do i wan with a lil ass girl?!

i think she was toxic in my life anyway and i really think this is GOD'S way of telling me our friendship

was bad for me.

ugh, i can't wait till i get my computer back so i can blog properly because just blogging at school is not working.  i can't show you guys my puppy or put up new pics of me or even put up my funny video i made *frowns*

just stick it out with me : )

p.s.: I HAVE DECIDED TO GET A TWITTER. YES, I HAVE DECIDED TO GET A TWITTER, COMING TO YOU SOON. AND BELOW YOU WILL FIND MY NEW FAV VIDEO, RHIHANNA WENT IN!!

why?

why is he even allowed in public? i shouldn't have to witness his face.

why doesn't he realize he's gay?

why do they look like the jackson5 on crack now?

why is he so DAMN fine??!!!

is it me or am i unattractive?

i was talking to one of my guy friends and he said black girls are not attractive. he said there's just something about us that is a turn off. so i asked him if it was the fact that we have alot of attitude and he said no, so obviously he was talking about the looks. he went on and on about how brazilian women and spanish women are sexy. yes, i do think brazilian and spanish women are beautiful but i see beauty in every race of women. i think it has everything to do with hair. i have nice hair, but i don't think it's the most important characteristisc to look for. im not gonna say it's all about personality either because, come on, who the hell doesn't wanna be attracted to their mate, but to but down all black girls, that was cruel and ignorant. i think the stereotype is that all black girls have is nappy hair, bad attitudes, tar colored skin and fat asses. nah, that's not true at all. i've seen black girls with green eyes, grey eyes, blond hair, brown hair, long hair, sand colored skin (not to say that light skinned girls are more attractive), beautiful chocolate skin, just drop dead gorgeous to say the least. but then again everyone is entitiled to their opinion. im just sayin, my man had no right to put it like that.

IM JUST SAYIN', WE WOMEN NEED TO STICK TOGETHER ON TOPICS LIKE THIS.

gotta love 'em

my mom can be a straight up bitch, and im not afraid to admit that. two days ago i used the bathroom at about 2:30 am and this woman seriously stood outside the bathroom waiting for me to finish just so she could yell at me. who the hell does that?, i understand im on punishment and all but come on! i was doing what a normal human being does, why should the time in which it was done be a reason to yell at me. so needless to say she pisses me off and i think she needs a slap from time to time. honestly i havent done ANYTHING since ive been on lock and that includes asking her for lunch money, so yes, i starve while im at school because she's that much of a bitch sometimes and i get so turned off that i don't even ask. i can't even stress how hard she is on me. six months of punishment for a glass of wine, everyone is entitiled to their opinion but i just think my mom does not know how to punish suitably. so last night when she pissed me off yet again i realized that there is nothing that that woman could do to make me stop loving her. there'e just some people in your life that you are going to love regardless. but my biological dad is another story. i havent said the word dad in so long that its foreign to me. i hate that "man". he can rot in hell. there's no excuse and i pray that God will have mercy on his soul. nuff said.

now my auntie is a cute, young, annoying thing. she always wants me to babysit and she's always at my house makin a whole lot of unwanted noise and i get sick of her always asking me how i feel. ugh, i just wanna yell at her but she's so sweet that if i did i would feel guilty afterwards. she's another one that gets on my LAST nerve bt i love her just the same. 

the list could just go on and on but im gonna end it there. other than that i feel like shit but at the same time i don't. i feel like shit on one hand because i miss my ipod, my laptop, my cell phone and my boo. mommy took all of that away from me. and on the other hand i feel great because colleges are contacting me and i feel like im gonna get my ticket out of my house. i wanna get away by any means and college is my ticket. im at the point in my life where i can't wait to be 18!!! i think it will be sweet but something in the back of my mind is telling me that i need to live my life now and not wait for it to start on my 18th birthday, but im waiting...peace out y'all.

ok i'm back!!

I feel like a stuffed turkey full of emotions. I'm happy and mad and a little worried.Well I'm happy because it's Friday. This weekend was much needed. It was hell trying to fix it but I fixed it so I'm REALLY happy about that so now you guys can see when I update this thang. I'm mad because I went to my boyfriend's house today to chill with his sister. His sister is my age and we're really cool, but his youngest sister who is a year younger than me and she does not like me at all. Do I have a issue with her not liking me? No, not at all. But what  I do have a problem with is that she disrespects me when it isn't even called for. I understand she's still young and immature at heart but she should know better. As soon as I walked in the door she said "the dog is here." At that moment I wanted to slap her teeth straight and rip the skin off of her face, but because I refuse to give the little bitch my energy, I'm gonna ignore her every time she has something to say. But if the little girl decides to touch me we are gonna have one of these..again.

I don't want it to go there, but I'm not as patient as she thinks. The quiet ones are the ones you gotta look out for, and that's me all the way. At any moment I could explode and do something to detroy her life forever and make sure she never recovers, but like I said I don't want it to go there. I dont have time for all of that.

The only reason I'm worried is because I just wanna do well in school. I have to get into a good college. I just have to.

peace out y'all! : )

technical difficulties

Some of you guys have informed me that my blog does not show up on you guys' dashboards. I don't know what the problem is and I'm trying to fix it. If anyone has any information on how to fix this problem please let me know so you guys don't think I'm slackin on the blogging. : )...I will be back with you guys momentarily.

a woman vs. a grown ass little girl :what happened at the salon

So today I got my hair done. I got myself a doobi at the dominican salon because I'm trying to do my natural thing, but anyway there was some drama today. Even though I don't speak spanish and I live in a highly Hispanic populated area, I caught the gist of what happened. so there I was getting my hair blown out and all of a sudden these two women step to my hair dresser on some other shit. Like they were yelling at her and showing her text messages and all my hair dresser said was "uh-uh, no, not me", so here's what happened. One of the women thought that my hair dresser was creeping around with her man. So she came in a salon full of people with her sister (probably), and decided to put her business out ther in front of a salon full of people and she put my haor dresser on blast, but my hair dresser did someting very classy, she told the woman that she will talk to her later like an adult and handle their bussiness when they were alone.

When you find out that your signifigant other is creeping you can do one of two things. You can get all ignorant and act before you think or you can handle your business like an adult. Once when one of my boyfriend's cheated on me, I didnt cry (at least not in front of people) and I didn't yell at him when I finally I saw him. I spoke to him and told him that instead of creeping around he should have stepped to me like a man and told me he wanted it to be over because I could have had someone else by my side if he no longer has interest then I decided to pay the girl he cheated on me with a little visit. I didn't whoop her ass even though I wanted to, but I spoke to her. I asked her if she knew about me and I told her that if he did something like this to me, what made her think that he wouldnt do it to her? Long story short I didn't get ghetto and i didn't call her out of her name and i showed no weakness. After that woman left after making a scene I realized that even though some women are technically grown women, they are still little girls. Character defines you, and I did not respect the way she handled her bussiness, to me she was just a grown ass little girl who thinks that screaming and crying will solve her problems. But I, a soon to be 17 year old, would not have done that. I would have handled mine like a lady and handled my man before I went to her first of all because he caused the crime, and then I would have talked to her, on out own time. Not whe she was working and tending to customers. Character is what seperates women from little girls. That's what I I learned today. I learned that I'm a woman because of my mindset, not because of my age.

HOW WOULD YOU HAVE HANDLED THE SITUATION?

the random ramblings of ZODIAC

I must take my alter ego seriously because I find myself talking in third person when I'm in ZODIAC mode. I love that lady. But anyway I feel all guilty because I feel like I haven't posted in two days but I was goin through some thangs. LADIES YOU CAN RELATE IM SURE. uhg, I just wanted to rip the skin off my stepfather's face yesterday! All he does is come in the house a complain...all the damn time and yesterday was one of those days where I wasn't fuckin beat for his BS. I was in my room chillin' then all I hear is "WHO ATE ALL THE CHIPS?!" We have about 5 bags of chips and his ass is mad because one of them were gone. He offically confirmed that men have that time of the month as well, it's not just women.

My ipod and I spent the whole day together and at first I was listening to those songs that fit my mood such as:

• PMS-mary j blidge
• RAIN ON ME-ashanti
• WHEN WILL I SEE YOU SMILE AGAIN-bell biv devoe
• NEVER NO MORE-aaliyah
• UNAPPRECIATED- cherish

just to name a few but then I came across my "sexy time playlist" which consists of:

• SEX THERAPY-robin thicke
• SO GOOD-day26
• BIRTHDAY SEX-jeremiah
• BEDROOM BOOM-chris king (my future husband) (oh, and he has a song called ZODIAC,so y'all know I'm in love)
• LOVE LIKE HONEY-pretty ricky
• UNDER-pleasure p (i hope he's not a rapist)
• WOULD YOU MIND-janet jackson
• STAY-jodeci

Long story short that playlist took me right out of my fowl mood cause within the first notes of sex therapy I felt so much better. lol I was also reminded of my crush I had on JEREMIAH. whoo! That man turned on the sexy for '09, but it's a new year so I wonder who's gonna turn up the sexy for 2010. Trey Songs might just keep it goin'.Alright I'm done, peace.

ALL because tomorrow is NEW YEARS!!

OK, THIS NEW LAYOUT TOOK ME ABOUT 3 GOOD HOURS TO MAKE, SO I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE IT. I would go into what I had to do just to get this template like this but I don't even wanna think about it lol. I just wanna start fresh and new for the new year so I had to make sure the blog was fresh iight? BUT ANYWAY, my morning wasn't so great and it's not because I spent so much time trying to do the impossible with this blog, but because my stepfather made breakfast for everyone in the house except me : (  ~insert "aww"~, it's 1:12 pm as of now and my ass has not even put a morsal of food in my mouth! I guess I better get on that, I'll be back later for sure. peace.

i would do this to some people if it wasn't CHRISTAMS TIME

HELL, SOME PEOPLE NEED IT

I lied, I'm sorry...

i do happen to have christmas wish list. there's just some things that are just too hot for me not to want it.
(btw theses pic are just used for commentary reasons)

this BETSEY JOHNSON "spotty tote" is too cute, I have a thing for animal print, especially color animal print so I think I need this.

the GLITTERATI PUMP from forever21

the ROGERI TROOPER FASHION BOOTS from forever21 to complete my bad ass look lol

the TALL GLADIATOR BOOTS from forever21. my mom has these but I have to get my own because she's not sharing and her feet are a lil bit bigger than mine : )

and of course some cash so I can hit up victoria's secret and the MAC counter and so I can get some new clothes. There were more shoes that I wanted but this post would have lated forever if I continued with my wish list to satisfy my shoe fetish lol. I LOVE HEELS!!

I REALLY HATE THE "P" WORD!!! > : (

"I LIKE A LONG HAIR, THICK, REDBONE"..ok..."OPEN UP HER LEGS, THE FILET MIGNON"...um,what?..."THAT P*SSY..."...ok, I hate the song "Every Girl" officially.
Why in the hell do people refer to the female reproductive organ as P*SSY??!!! I hate that damn word with a passion, but let me explain why: it makes women sound like a object. It makes one of God's most beautiful and important structures sound like something one can just use and throw away. I have no idea if I'm the only female that feels this way but I really hope I'm not. That word always has a bad meaning and I hear women use it! Do men really have that much influence??!! I'm sick of hearing it in songs, I hate to hear it in movies and iIHATE to hear it in everyday life. I feel like these stupid men need to have more respect for the very thing that gave them life, held them for 9 months!! And women just need to stop using that word all together, I know everyone is going to have their own name for their genitils but "P*SSY" NEEDS TO GO FOR FEMALES ASAP. OK, I'm tired now lol, but this was just somethin iIhad to post ast 12:21 am, I must love you guys. But yes some opinions would be lovely because I need to understand why people use this word for women..."P*SSY"..ew.

two throw back joints and a WTF???!! video

LL COOL J- DOIN IT (remember this?....)


JODECI- CRY FOR YOU (love it, I miss them)



this is straight ignorance and,,ya know what, I'll let you guys comment on this one, parents make me sick nowadays, but wow come on! and old boy was right, the baby is cute but why in the hell would this "mother" put a wig on this baby??!

my rant in school...

Damn, I'm in school, in the library in my lunch period and I am not happy whatsoever. I swear if another one of these rude shit bump into me imma just blow up the school all together. Oh gosh and if my english teacher gives us one more assignment imma tell her about herself, even though I like her as a teacher. *shurgs*

I was thinkin about christmas because it not too far away at all, and I've decided that I don't want anything. If someone floats some cash my way I'll be happy but I'm good. Honestly the thrill and excitement of this holiday has worn off ever since I figured out that there is no damn santa. I mean come one, I can't go in the closet because why? There's special bags in there? PLEASE...I figured out what it was at the age of 8. I don't need toys, and I have a laptop a ipod and a cell phone. WHAT MORE COULD I WANT?? I just wanna go to the club to be honest, I have some steam to let off.

Well, I'm finish with my ice cream and my chocolate rice crispies treat so I guess I'll end this post at school so I have something to say when I get home. OH SNAP, I JUST REALIZED I TOLD Y'ALL THAT I WANNA START MAKING VIDEOS SO I CAN MAKE YOUS GUYS LAUGH! I SHOULD ASK FOR A NEW DIGITAL CAMERA WITH SOUND! WHAT? GUYS ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS BE PREPARED TO LAUGH AND SOMETIMES CRY AT THE LIFE OF ZODIAC. BUT IMMA MAKE Y'ALL FEEL ME CAUSE SHIT IS REAL.

have a wonderful holiday!

Everyone, I hope ya'll have a blessed and safe holiday and eat until you burst cause I know I will lol.
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving.

is bullsh*t on the menu today?

nobody is looking for much when they're looking for a boo. i truely believe no one's stadards are too high, but it pissed me off what happened yesterday. ok, so im at the chinese spot after school with my girls and we see this fine ass dude. nice caramel complextion, waxed brows (it didn't make him look gay), tall, rockin waves, nice lips, big brown eyes, you guys get the picture he was just fine. and he was dressed fresh to death. so he sees us and we all lookin good (especially moi, cause he was tryin to talk to me), and he walks over. i wasn't trying to get with him cause i have a boo but i saw nothing wrong with exchanging some helllo's. this is how the conversation went:


me: hi, how you doin'?
him: I'm good shorty, no wat Im sayin..you fine.
me: ok thank you
him:can I get your number sweetie? I'm tryna see what's good with you
me: well if you wanna know what's good with me I'll just tell you now, GOD blessed me and woke me up this morning and I plan on walking away wfrom you in about two seconds
him:damn ma, why?
me: ok first of all sweetie, you askin for my number and you don't even know my name cause you weren't smart enough to ask. second of all you don't know how to talk to a lady, and that's what I am so have a nice day, I dont have time for this.
him: you kinda stuck up
me: no, I just know what I want and how I want to be approached, and if I have to educate you on how to do that obviously your not man enough for me

*big sigh*... this is what I call someone having bullsh*t on their menu, and that dude really tried to serve it to me. "bulls*t" can be defined as anything you don't have time for and I do not have time for a dude that doesn't know how to talk to a female. I didn't want him to sweet talk me or to offer to pay for my food, I just wanted him to show some respect and to make it known that his mama taught him somethin. I expect girls to be better but sadly, we're not. I can't tell you guys how many times my guy firends would be like like "yo Bri, i just saw this bad chick but she was so stupid!" or somethin like that and the girl was serving serious bullshit. At the end of the day I want everybody to be boo'd up (shot out to khaki), but how are we gonna accomplish my dream if we keep serving each other the BS??!! We gotta get it together asap people.

have you used your brain today?

have you thought today?

think periodically, (that means think sometimes)