:unofficial girl:

being in a "relatioship" and all what it's made up to be

it's complete bullshit

i just don't have the feelings i used to have for my boo because i feel stuck

the last time i saw him i wasn't even happy to see him

i was sick to my damn stomach!

ugh, and i actually felt bad that he likes me more than i like him

he kept calling me girlfriend and ven though i didn't tell him how i felt about that, after we parted ways i realized something very important

i liked being his unofficial girl

it's sweet that he wants to go there with me but uh-uh, im not even feelin it

all day i was thinking if i should tell him or not cause i just dont' know what i should do at this point

this is how i feel, he was my little secret for some time, and it should stay that way, but we not cheating i rather leave before we get into all of that mess which brings me to this song...



i feel the girl version of this, i have love for him and i don't wanna hurt him but i just wanna do me *shrugs*

A moment with Zodiac

Hello everyone, I would just like to take a moment to tell you all how much I appreciate your comments and the fact that you guys took the time to read my blog and get to know me. I love all of my readers (I don't like the word followers) and I love you all. My first blog only had 5 readers but now, I have 65 flavors of the Zodiac checkin in and leaving comments and whatnot. I love making you guys laugh and I love making you guys think and you guys have returned the favor all the time because there were plenty of times you guys' complements made me laugh and made me reach into the deepest abyss of my mind. LOVE YOU GUYS!!

OH AND TO MAKE YOU GUYS LAUGH CHECK OUT THESE VIDEOS OF MARTIN LAURENCE IN HIS FAMOUS ROLE OF "SHANANAE" lol, laugh your pants off

A LOVE LETTER...or whatever you wanna call it (a freestyle poem)

Before I start this I would just like to say that I feel like I been slippin with my poetry because I've been too into my music (I'm a r&b artist), and I really feel like this right now...enjoy.


you contribute to the saga in my life
but I don't mind
I don't care
you contribute, but you're not there
it's like I'm connected to you
like we share one heart beat
but you bruise my heart every chance you get
you hear my cries like it's your favorite song
but I don't mind
I don't care
you're here, but invisible like air
I don't want to find you on my think
so I go to sleep
but your even in my world with the unconscious me
shit must be deep
you found your way into my soul
you found a way to make me care
you found a way to make me surrender me to you
I should mind
I should care
but I don't
I should snatch myself away from you
but I won't
at the end of the day I am your life line
I am the blood in your veins
I'm that angel on your shoulder telling you I'm here
massaging your ego and tending to your every need
the greed
but I don't mind
I don't care
I hope karma comes back to me, and one day you'll be there

(I do copywrite my shit so please don't try anything slick)

love waiting for you

Have you ever wondered who the person your going to marry will be? (if your not already married). I wonder how my life is going to play out all the time but what really makes me think is who am I going to spend my life with? Do you think about how you might meet said perosn, how they're going to look, what attracted you to them, what made you fall in love. I truly believe there is someone out there for everyone because there's so much out there, but I think it's important not to force it cause true love just happens. But things like this is deep to me because love is sacred and I think that God created a person especially for all of us, and that is something special. I just hope we all find love, nowadays we need it.

just thought you should know..

it's not easy holding back tears...I miss you.

letter to my past...

I can finally forgive you for the pain..I can honestly say I miss you. If you think I feel any resentment, your wrong. Life is too short for me to deny my love for you, I'm not in love with you though. I thought of you yesterday and I actually smiled. you still have that effect on me, even though your not what I need. I have to protect myself, that's why we're not together. Honestly, are you ready for a woman like me? I know your not but I still linger in the back of your mind, but I can say the same about you. We will always be friends and if you ever need to feel unconditional love you know where to come. 6 years and counting...can you believe it?



love forever, zodiac

love at first sight..

I swear I didnt mean for it to happen but it did. Its not love but the feelings are too strong for it to be so soon. As of now he talks to me more than his girlfriend. DAMN! i'm not the type to wear my heart on my sleeves and im not the type to be nice when i first meet someone but..he found his way into my heart and quite frankly it's freaking me out!

i don't play games but im never 100 percent truthful with guys but this dude makes me wanna pour out a love letter everytime I talk to him...hmm... is love a possiblitity? But at the same time WHAT DO I KNOW ABOUT LOVE? I'm only 16 (going on 17 in about four months)..we're the same zodiac sign and his b-day is a day before mine. Needless to say we have ALOT in common. wow..guys tell me what to do!

Do you believe in love at first sight?..cause I do..and tonight I see you (chris king holla at me!)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?

DO YOU THINK LOVE CAN BE THAT INSTANT?

HAVE YOU FALLEN IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT? 

GUYS..I need some opinions so don't be afraid to comment..part two coming soon