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back in the day #3

This song is sorta ho i feel about a mr.nijel, this is the perfect song because everybody has has a crush before and this song captured all the symptoms of a crush, IMMATURE-CONSTANTLY...enjoy

I'm back and I have somethin to tell ya'll!!

Guys I seriously feel like I havent' been blogging in forever, its been like five years and I apologize but junior year has been keepin me occupied. Like the new page? It look me forever to do this too cause I wanted somethin more me so I took care of it and now everything is straight. ok..remember nijel? well I still like him and last thursday was  homecoming and I knew he would be there. : ) this is what I wore:

He didnt know I knew but he was staring HARD! I knew I looked good and all and I thought it was cute that I caught his attention. All night I caught him staring at me, but he's shy so he didn't ask me to dance but it's ok because we played each others eye candy all night. It was my fisrt dance at the school and I saw so much. My school is about 99.9% Hispanic and i'm not sayin they can't dance at all cause I saw some girls killin it but OMG!...CAN YOU SAY NO RHYTHM!!??!! LOL

FOR THE MOST PART I HAD FUN THOUGH.

RIP AJ

I know that Kandi was so in love with this man and it broke my heart that he was killed. I'm sad for his children as well because he had six. She has my condolences and she and his kids and his family will be in my prayers.

the good..the bad..the ugly

For the first time in weeks I actually felt like crying. I am very stressed, upset, crushing hard and it seems to me like time is going too fast for me and I feel like I'm being left behind.

AS FOR THE GOOD: I FINALLY talked to my crush. I was so scared but when I finally talked to him it was so good! It was funny how it happened cause I kinda yelled at him but still, it was dreamy and absolutely what I've been wanting since last year. Oh...and I auditioned for choral and I made it! Yay for me! I love music!









AS FOR THE BAD: I'm doing just OK in school. I am a serious perfectionist. My teachers say that everything doesn't have to be perfect but that goes in one ear and out the other cause I will not hand in work that's sloppy and less than worthy. That's not apart of the Briani swag. I have to be above the rest with whatever I do especially because I'm tryin to go to college and everything counts. But being a perfectionist is not easy. I give up so much time that should be mine into school work and I know that in the end it'll all pay off but some days falling off a bridge sounds really good. I just wish I could tell time to wait damn minute so I can take a deep breath and get some sleep!







AS FOR THE UGLY: people are gonna make me come out of my character and I will have to start distributing slaps! I'm not a clingy person. I'm independent and I like people who don't like to be up under me unless your one of the people I chill with all day everyday. There's two people that I feel like if they don't see me or I don't talk to them all day they can't go on. It was scary at first but now its just annoying and I'm getting mad! I know I'm a cool chick to be around but I have like five people in my school that I don't mind being around all day everyday, but some people need to take 10 giant steps back and let a girl breathe! They're gonna make me go into "Stewie mode" and just while out. And I swear if one of those retarded freshmen bump into me into more gin imma go off!

I AM JEALOUS

I'M NOT SURE HOW TO START THIS POST SO I'M JUST JUMP RIGHT INTO IT...I have a dead beat dad. He has my number but doesn't call me. For my 16th birthday I didn't get a "happy birthday" or a gift from him. He neglected me for two Christmases and two thanksgivings. He lies to his family and says he pays child support and he doesn't. When he asks me if I need clothes and I say yes and he tells me he will take me shopping he doesn't. As strong as I try to be, because his lies are nothing new, I still find myself asking God "why me?''. I don't want to question God's plan but I really wonder why he chose the man that he chose to be my father. My mom says he's a sperm donor because it's more to being a father than supplying DNA. I get so sad sometimes ya'll, but anyway, when I watch "Runs House", I really get jealous of Vanessa, Angela,Diggy,Russy,Jojo and Miley. They have a strong, intelligent, providing, understanding, loving, compassionate Black man in their lives, and it pisses me off that more Black men can't or choose not to be like him. I see him interact with them. He exposes them to new things. He only wants top notch things for them. He ALWAYS shows love. He is very understanding and I just wish that I had that. I was actually thinking about writing a book for girls in my situation because a lot of us need guidance, and I see alot of girls go down a bad road because they didn't feel the love from their fathers. I'm trying to be strong. I get very weary from the situation because it seems like every chance he gets he does something to piss me off with his ignorance and lies. I know there's no sin in getting weary, the sin is giving up, and I gave up a long time ago because I feel that there is no more forgiveness in my heart or tolerance in my mind or energy in my body. Thank you Rev Run, Obama, Diddy and my stepfather for being great and awesome men to your kids. You guys are deeply appreciated.

lesbians on straight women like white on rice

I don't have a problem with gay women. I have two lesbian friends but I can't get with them lesbian women pushin up on me when they know I'm straight. Like I had this one chick ask a friend of mine if I was gay and I was so appalled! How dare she think I would even go that way!?! But hey, us sexy chicks can attract anyone right? But I can't get with bein lesbo. I don't wanna hear no " don't knock it till you try it." or no "i can give you everything a man can." NO THE HELL YOU CAN'T. OK? But like I said I have no problem with people being gay but that's just not my thing. Like have you been pushed up on by someone who wasn't of your sexual orientation? Don't it feel weird? I'm just sayin that people's gay-dar needs to be upgraded cause it's pretty obvious when someone is gay, straight, lesbian or transsexual. And we have to respect each others space.

back in the day...#2

WHOOOOO! ladies I know ya'll hear me when I say that this song is still the SH*T!! NOBODY can tell me different, I know ya'll will enjoy this one..SILK-FREAK ME

back in the day....

I'm a 90's baby. Born in '93 and proud of it, so on my ipod I will say that about 92% of the music is 90's r&b and hip-hop. I feel good when I hear these songs so every week I've decided to take ya'll back to when music had lyrical content and meaning without the explicit BS. Enjoy... "DO YOU WANT TO"-XSCAPE

i need comments for this one

OK. So there's this girl that I know that likes this boy and they are in the same grade and everything. She's pretty,stylish and smart and she's just a real cool chick. Today she found out that her crush has a girlfriend, and get this, she's a freshman! I was so mad when she told me cause I knew she really liked the boy and wanted to get to know him, but he chose a skank stank nobody over a top of the line dime. How that look? And he is a junior! (we are in high school) When she told me I felt bad for her because I knew she was crushed, but that's what crushes end up in right? Being crushed. I told her to just move on to a boy that can handle someone his age and not take the easy way out, and even though she was like, "yeah.yeah, your right.", I knew inside that she wouldn't let go. I don't wanna tell her to be a home wrecker but hey, if she want her man that bad I think she should go get him but at the same time I wanna tell her to keep it movin. I usually have the right remedy for my friends but I really wanna steer her in the right direction on this one. What's a girl to do?