i guess people were right when they say " the excitment wears off."
but the good thing is i saw my crush today!! yes it's the same mr.nigel i been havin a crush on since last year!
ugh, he's like tyson beckford with some morris chestnut and pooch hall and willie from day 26 all rolled intoone.yes, it'sthatserious : )
which brings me to my next point, i need to "break up" with my "boyfriend"
he's becoming a real pain in the ass. he wants to be all up on me and kiss and talk and it's just at the point where i wanna tell him off but at the same time i don't wanna hurt him. but he makes me wanna slap him when he expects me to look good at all times but he be all scruffy and once he even smelled like fish, that's when i knew it had to be over. may sound shallow but whatever, my eyes and nose has needs and if he can't satisfy them but he expects me to satisfy his, it won't work anyway.
i was talking to one of my guy friends and he said black girls are not attractive. he said there's just something about us that is a turn off. so i asked him if it was the fact that we have alot of attitude and he said no, so obviously he was talking about the looks. he went on and on about how brazilian women and spanish women are sexy. yes, i do think brazilian and spanish women are beautiful but i see beauty in every race of women. i think it has everything to do with hair. i have nice hair, but i don't think it's the most important characteristisc to look for. im not gonna say it's all about personality either because, come on, who the hell doesn't wanna be attracted to their mate, but to but down all black girls, that was cruel and ignorant. i think the stereotype is that all black girls have is nappy hair, bad attitudes, tar colored skin and fat asses. nah, that's not true at all. i've seen black girls with green eyes, grey eyes, blond hair, brown hair, long hair, sand colored skin (not to say that light skinned girls are more attractive), beautiful chocolate skin, just drop dead gorgeous to say the least. but then again everyone is entitiled to their opinion. im just sayin, my man had no right to put it like that.
IM JUST SAYIN', WE WOMEN NEED TO STICK TOGETHER ON TOPICS LIKE THIS.
I think being a ho is wrong. I think stealing somebody's man is wrong, but I don't know how to feel if you are just sitting there and your looking pretty to a man that has a girl. I don't know what to think when you know you make another woman feel insecure. The immature and ignorant side of Zodiac would say that it's on her. You can't help it if her other thinks you're attractive, and you can't help it if a man that knows he has a woman looks at you with lust or interest. On the other hand, it's a horrible feeling to know that your other has an eye for another woman, but what if you are that woman? Are you in the wrong? And I don't mean you gave that man the eye or even payed him any attention, I mean you're just there minding your own business looking cute.
I'm the threat to someone and I don't like how it feels cause she tried to make it seem like I did something wrong. She got mad that her man called me cute, but I wasnt even paying him any mind. I was too busy txting my man. That night she told him, "I don't wanna lose you. I know she's prettier than me but please don't leave me." He told her to shut the hell up and I thought that was funny but I felt really bad, but then I had to think if I should feel bad. I wasnt even attracted to her man but even if I was she's my friend and I wouldnt do that to her. But I really felt bad that I was the person to make her feel insecure. Hmmm, but I didn't do anything wrong and if she's insecure about her looks then that's her internal struggle and I have nothing to do with that and she can't blame me for her personal physical issues. No one can blame others for that in a situation like that. I hate the saying, "Don't hate me because I'm beautiful." because it sounds stupid, but I will say this "Don't blame others for your insecurities."
Iight, everybody wanna be a doll or a barbie. Hmmm, I got mad love for ms.Nicki Minaj HOWEVER, I have no desire to be a Barbie. Why may you ask, lemme tell you:
B.A.R.B.I.E.S mean "bitch ass rabid bitches imitating everybody's swag" to me
Why the hell would I wanna be fake beauty?
Why would I wanna fit into the idea of what beauty is?
I might have to dye my hair pink,blue, or some crazy color like that
I stopped playing with Barbies a LONG time ago
I have my own swag
I'm on my grown woman status, so being a "Barbie" does not satisfy my swag
A Barbie is a piece of plastic that has air brushed make-up on it to make it pretty. I want to be beautiful because I'm me. Not because I dye my hair pink and because I slap on alot of make up and wear bright colors all the time. And besides Lil Kim started this Barbie ish, and that has been played out for a long time now. Now Nicki is a bad bitch to me (well before lil wayne watered her down), but I could care less about her "Barbie movement". And I love me some Lil Kim, but she was beautiful before she injected her lips and cut off her nose and changed her hair blond. That shit is fake and I will never understand why she couldn't appreciate her real beauty. I mean sprucing up your looks is one thing, but they are doing complete 360's to feel pretty. Neither one of their body's is real, yeah didn't know that did you? Nicki ain't all that curvy and we all know Lil Kim's boobs float lol. God gave us what he gave us for a reason, and i feel like we should look in the mirror everyday and love what we see. F*uck what we see on t.v. or what other have to say. JUST BE YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE YOUR OWN BLUEPRINT, THERE IS NO REPLICA, unless you have a twin.
NOW THIS MAY COME AS A SURPRISE, BUT MISS PIGGY IS THE BADDEST BITCH. THE REAL H.B.I.C, and she ain't even a real human but she never claimed to be a a Barbie.
I listened to "j.cole-losing my balance" and it really spoke to me. As women is all the make up and weave and nails lies or are they the things that makes us, us? Before I listened to this song I thought my nails and my weave and the little bit of make up I do wear (lip gloss and mascara) was my style but to men, are they lies? Are they the things that contribute to the masks we wear everyday or are they just us? And if you think the make up you wear and your weave and the nails or what have you is just what makes you you as a woman, why do those things make you feel better about your apperance? I really had to think about this shit. DID WE LOSE OUR BALANCE?
In the last verse of the song he speakes about a woman that has this bad body and she basically fine as hell to him, but it's her mind that "made him lose his balance". Rather than go to the club and pop champagne, she would choose to rent a movie and get close (not in a too much on a first date kind of way), and she had old boy sprung, to the point where is friends felt neglected, and ladies ya'll know when a man neglects his boys for you that means you got him whipped. Now my question is why can't more women feed men their minds? Men have a natural need to be satisfied sexually (I learned this in my psych class), but I also learned that it is a woman that will make a man learn to appreciate a converstaion. Men love to think and they will respect a woman that will make him think a different way, but at the same time if she's not the visual he needs then most likely he won't give her the time of day. Men always say that women don't know we want but do they know what they want? I've come across men who complain about weave and make up and all of the other things they consider "fake", but if she took off that weave and was walking around with brillo pad hair, would he stick with her then ,even though she has this beautiful mind that he supposedly fell in love with in the first place? DID THINKING ABOUT THAT MAKE YOU LOSE YOUR BALANCE?
THIS IS THE SONG BY J.COLE, YOU SHOULD LISTEN FOR A MINUTE (IM SERIOUS)
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