intintionally hurt...(letter to my "best friend")

I tried to hide it

I even tried to deny it

but I've been intentionally hurt

hurt by a love that was supposed to be reserved for me

by a person who i thought if i gave them what they need,they would give me what i need

I've been intentionally hurt

maybe she doesn't know

or maybe she does

but everyday i ask myself

"what happened to the love?"

when the world got to be too much for her I would be her shield

I was the one to hold her when she needed to be held

I've been intentionally hurt

I thought if I gave love I would get it in return

but I've been left abandoned and destitute

by my best friend, my sister,who was supposed to be you

I know she can feel my need and taste my pain

I know she heard me when I said "without you I would go insane."

I've been intentionally hurt

by someone I gave time that I didn't have

by someone who when her blood made her cry, I would make her laugh

I question my intelligence

I seriously thought she had love for me

I thought if I shed blood for her,she would bleed for me

I've been intentionally hurt

by someone I would never do harm to

so why were you so quick to hurt me if I never tried to hurt you?

I've learned to love her flaws

glorify her perfections

but you intentionally hurt me when you took away your affection

I'm hurt

and I know you know

but at the same time with any relationship, that's the way love goes